So I just sat down to write my awards entry. A great colleague of mine reminded me some days ago that the deadline is coming up and asked if I was entering this year, too?
I wasn't sure, to be honest, especially given the big changes in the way my business has been developing of late, but my mind definitely got fired up upon being reminded...
Entering an award is GAME ON for visibility!!! But this time, this was about something else... another perspective for visibility!
As you know here all, visibility is my absolute thing. I know how it works. I live it, I breathe it.
Entering an award, as it has shown me over the years, always served me in a fantastic way. It got me lots of eyeballs, recognition, noticing, acknowledgment. People in my network knew that I was involved, because an award sticks with the mind. It's like a trophy. I was a finalist, yet lots of people thought of me as an award winner.
They remember it, they talk about it, it comes up in conversations.
Simply because of the fact that I kept communicating about it. I made it visible. I told stories about it. And I was of course proud of what I have achieved. I am happy I could go down the track to have been able to share my joy with my network, especially after most of my life not even going there. Because "you are just not supposed to brag, you got to be modest". Yes, I had that belief.
So I know that entering an award, just by participating, is something I can totally use to max out visibility.
But what happened then? When I got the message form my colleague, I started wondering. What now? I started doubting myself. My initial thought this year was that I am not entering...
Then I immediately questioned it. But what about the visibility???? I am gonna miss out all the "fame". "I won't be anymore among the top peers in my industry, named, listed, acknowledged." Great, another belief...
My mind told me, Bea, YOU GOTTA ENTER! "It's a good practice to redefine and focus your new direction from another perspective." But when I checked in with my heart, it told me a very different answer. This is not what will make my heart sing. It is not needed anymore.
I tried to resist. I asked for the recommendations to file. And I sat down to write my entry. But again, something just didn't feel right. I didn't feel aligned. My intuition told me, this is not genuine, and I have a lesson here to trust my gut. But what would it feel like to give up the acknowledgement? Deep inside, I knew the answer.
My mind still resisted. So I decided to entertain it, by playing cards. I like cards, and lately I like to draw one to get my messages to myself confirmed. Guess what. The card called Direction Guardian appeared, and it said:
"Choose the path you know is going to make you light up."
I still wanted to doubt myself, and I was curious what else can I come up with to shift gears. So I muscle tested myself. It's a technique commonly used in ThetaHealing® to check in with your body basically if it is a yes or a no for you.
The answer was again clear. No need to enter. Very clear no.
Haha, I still didn't fully want to believe myself, and still felt something was not ok for me. So I decided to check in with my subconscious, by using the Theta brainwave meditation technique. I asked myself what is best for me in this situation.
I discovered that my need that was previously motivating my entry to the awards has been met. I LOLed. What a relief. I don't need to enter to get external recognition anymore. I don't need to live up to expectations. I simply can tune in and know that I am on the right path, and I know what it feels like to do an amazing job with the amazing people I have in my life, my clients, my network, and feel acknowledged from within.
Deep inside, I knew this is what my hear was saying from the beginning. So I listened.
I am choosing to go out of my comfort zone by not entering. It is unknown territory. My mind tells me I am screwing up as I give up this amazing opportunity for visibility.
My heart, however, tells me I just stepped into the amazing opportunity for visibility. This is not from the outside. This is from within.
A matter of perspective and choosing how to look at it.
I am forever grateful for my amazing colleagues who put on this award year by year, for my colleagues who enter, who participate, and I totally encourage you all to enter an award, if you can. If you don't, you might simply stay the best kept secret the world need to know about. It is awesome for visibility.
And first and foremost, I totally recommend to trust your heart, your intuition, your gut, and if you don't know how, or forgot how to do it, you might like to explore opportunities how to tune into it. I believe we all have it. I believe it is beautiful to listen to it. I also know I can help you with it, if you want it.
It can B! a wonderful asset when you are in doubt, questioning your worth, and desperately trying to get that appreciation, that will never really fill up your cuppa from the outside. Based on my experience.
I hope you enjoyed my story.
Here am I with the card. Let's see how the story unfolds...
Hi, I'm Bea!