Acknowledging sadness today. It was a tough day. I got very triggered by something. I decide to go into it. I wanted to acknowledge the process. The feelings. Being honest. With myself. This picture is a tribute to reflecting on the sadness that was still there from what I felt after working myself through several other feelings. I wish I could express it better with a picture, but I also love the details in this.
This whole thing came in a very uncomfortable and interesting time. I was just about to "appear" on Zoom as I had a podcast interview we had scheduled with Sania for today. I had to get ready for the "show" to bring my best self. We met 3 years ago at Social Media Marketing World. She couldn't make it this year, and she asked me after the conference if she could interview me on my takeaways and what trends I see coming.
But then, the crisis hit...
I was wondering in the past few days already how will I frame my takeaways into context, to reflect on my learnings and at the same time, being mindful of these unprecedented times. I was a bit anxious. Talking about social media marketing in general just doesn't feel timely for me in this sense right now. It hasn't really felt like for the past few months already.
Then, when I started my day today, I got completely triggered. Now I got even more anxious. How am I going to be able to say anything in this stage... I almost cancelled our call.
Interestingly, I set off to Social Media Marketing World with a new vision, a new calling on my radar this year. How can we use social media as a tool for growth, not just in the traditional sense, but as a tool for self development. This is what I truly got excited about.
I was worried first what if I won't get this year what I wanted, what if I will come back disappointed, as it was something completely new. I didn't just want "social media marketing tips" anymore.
Happily, I feel very grateful that I got what I wanted, and even more. But more on this later. We will talk about this in the podcast, too - you will be able to tune in next week, and I will also write about it more, too.
But what I wanted to share today is that I got a lot of new perspectives from today, too, thanks to this context. The trigger, working it out, before the interview, so I can talk about my takeaways, and share with a deeper understanding.
And with the happenings in the past few weeks, this journey just seems to take off to a whole new level in me.
I'm following my intuition stronger than ever.
I feel the world needs more honesty today.
I definitely can't cheat myself anymore. And I don't want to paint illusions. There is so much fake out there right now. And happily, so much realness, too. I have the choice which way I want to go.
So I wanted to share with you the picture I was going to post today after the interview. I took it right after the interview. I feel happy here. At peace.
However, I finally chose to take it down. It didn't feel right. It didn't feel right because the majority of my day was not in this space. It felt as if I were cheating myself by posting this.
So I decided to take a picture of myself, tuning in to the remaining of that sadness I felt today, and post that as the main picture to go along with this post. It feels right. It feels honest. With myself.
Happily, I now have tools to help me grow, and tune into my feelings. And these pictures below reflect hope that there is a lot of growth that is yet to appear on the horizon, as sparkling rays of light start dancing on the waves after a nice rain.
All these picture are genuine. In their own time. But first and foremost, honesty.
Can you be honest with yourself today?
Hi, I'm Bea!